so this post is very personal



Hey readers 

So I have been doubting myself a lot recently, this doesn't usually happen but when it does I fall hard and fast into my negative cycle as I call it. So at the moment, my main reason is this blog its because it is new and I am scared to tell people that I have started a blog because this blog is raw as in I am not hiding my emotions and this scares me! 

 Do not get me wrong I love to write my posts and sharing it with you my readers like I said before I am an open book, But sometimes I doubt myself because after all I am human and I feel emotions whether I like them or not. One of the main reasons I think I am scared to tell people oh I have started a new blog and have only told a few people is because I don't like having the spotlight on me I prefer to hand it over to others and listen to what they have to say. 

So my question is this Why as adults or human beings do we doubt ourselves? why is it when something is new we shrink away from things? I am so fearful to share something like this blog? Why do I doubt myself when I know that I am perfectly capable of doing this? Am I actually afraid of judgement? 

 I was always the student that when we had a public speaking assignment for any subject I would feel defeated before I had started writing my speech before I went and spoke I would get so nervous and be so terrified that once I got up to the front of the class my mind would go blank. I was also that student that would write their WHOLE speech on those cards. Is it because I was afraid of Judgement? Was I scared of being Judged? 

 I feel like the last few posts have been a bit negative and I am sorry for that But I want to share it because I feel like if someone else is reading this and they feel the same way as I do that they are not alone. 

 cheers Eimz x 


Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Exercises I do at home that are way too EASY!

Image
Hey readers  here are some exercises that I do that are easy and you can do them IN YOUR OWN HOME with little to NO EQUIPMENT needed! how good is that it means that you don't need to buy an expensive membership to a gym that you won't use or any excuses NOT to do exercise ... you are most welcome now put the chocolate bar down and let's get started.  Right so here are 5 exercises that I do on a Monday please be careful and if you are not able to do something, then don't do them just relax and move onto the next ones haha.  ok beginners:  plank  push up  situps  crunches  wall sits  Ok intermediates:  squats  push ups (on toes) knee to elbow  crunches  plank (side or front plank)  Ok Advanced: Burpees  side plank Front Plank  shoulder taps  clapping push-ups shoulder taps  sit to stand  pistol Squats   Always try these first at a gym to get the...
Read more

I just had an anxiety attack before 3pm Sydney Australian time

Hey Readers  So I wanted you to know this because I am an open book, I think that mental health is something that we should talk more about. I know that some of you reading this will ask yourselves why is this person telling a complete stranger about this but I think it is worth talking about as uncomfortable as it is for you reading it and me writing it. So I have had anxiety since I was 8 years old or maybe 10 years old, When I have an anxiety attack I usually find it scary because I hyperventilate and because this happens I panic because I can't breathe from it which makes me cry.  So ten minutes ago I had an anxiety attack and it was the 1st one I have had since high school ( as I am writing this I am crying) It was the scariest thing because it has come out, of nowhere, out of thin air. I know that for some of you this will be uncomfortable to read this but I don't want any of you to feel like you are alone ever.  I want you my readers to know that I am an...
Read more