why is conflict such an issue for me
Hey Readers,
So I have a small issue it could be a big issue whatever way you all look at it and if any of you would like to comment on this post about how you can help me it would be much appreciated.
So my issue is CONFLICT I dont know why but I can not deal with it. When i am angry with someone It will usually take me 3 to 4 days to get up the courage to say something. Am I a people person? Or am i just too empathetic? why is it so difficult?
When someone tells me that they have a problem with me Or the WE NEED TO TALK it has me running for the hills! I can usually think of stupid things to say but right now i have got nothing im stumped.
I will give you an example of how bad it is:
So i can debate with my parents maybe argue with them a little bit but as soon as its over I get so upset that it brings me to tears. If Someone tells me they have a problem with me for a few nights I can not sleep because i keep thinking what is wrong with me? what did i say that i shouldnt have? Am I a bad person? How did this happen? what is going to happen? what have I done to disappoint you?
All these questions go around in my head for days and sometimes weeks. Then I feel guilty because I feel like I wasnt a good enough person to them. maybe i didnt give them enough of my time or that I was there but I wasnt mentally there. I have huge anxiety over these things. But conflict makes me run for the hills I am not good with dealing with it!
cheers x
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