Living everyday as if it is your last

Hey readers 

So to live my day as if it was my last is usually what people dream off because it means that we have freedom and we are not tied down to anything or anyone or any place. In basic speak, it means TO LIVE OUR BEST LIVES!!!! 

So if we are so caught up in planning our future and we keep bringing up the past how are how do we remember what is happening in the present? How do we live our best lives? how do we gain the ultimate freedom? 

When we are kids we didn't care about the past and we may have said when I grow up I want to be x,y and z. but it would switch daily (at least I know for me it did anyway) it wasn't concrete. One day it would be I want to live in a Palace and be a princess, the next minute or hour or day or week it could be I want to live in the zoo and be a monkey. then all of a sudden we were no longer children we grew up we had to make decisions and make them fast. we copied our friends because we thought that would be the same path as our own and that way we also could fit in. I remember thinking to myself as much as I used to stand out, I would say if I fit in would I really be happy being one of those cool kids? Would I truly be happy with myself if I started acting the same as them? I also once asked myself one day which was my eye opener is Am I feared because I am different and do I make a statement when I stand out and myself?

Then we got to the beginnings of adulthood (my stage anyone older you can add your own part) we are now so busy with deadlines, we are so consumed by problems to fix or to face that we forget where we came from. We are also so competitive now If my colleague is behind in this work then some of us are giving ourselves a pat on the back and saying yes I can beat them. We are also so guarded as adults, for some of us we need an alcoholic beverage to be able to be looser to dance in front of people, some of us woman need makeup to gain confidence and use it as a mask to hide their hurt and we all want to be the same as everyone else. But think about this what happened to the child that we once were the free spirit because what we are all chasing is what we have always been it's just that we don't see it. We are looking for the things that are already within us. I always think to myself If this girl has bigger boobs then me I can't change that, I am happy in the skin I am in. I am happy to hear other peoples opinions because I am open to growth I am not above criticism and I will always be willing to learn. 

Cheers Eimz x